The first time in awhile I could come and post–school has eaten me alive, but I finished my program and am gonna start job hunting soon. Meanwhile, I’ve been slowly building a daily ritual of offerings and prayer towards the Canaanite pantheon.
I’m conscientious about my path at the moment. I’ve been exploring different spiritualities and religions for years, ever since going to college. In the last 5 years, I’ve always come back to Catholicism. As cool it would be to worship the deities of the Philippines, where my family comes from, I have a hard time associating the Philippines (and my family) with anything but Catholicism.
So it kind of scares me when I realized that I am going further into studying and honoring the Canaanite pantheon. For all my bouncing in and out of Catholicism, I have felt a response to my calls to the Gracious Deities: Athiratu, Anatu, Choranu, so far. I am drawn to Them, the way I used to be drawn to the Virgin Mary. My connection isn’t that clear with them yet, but the glimpses I get during prayer or simply meditating upon Them have shown me that They are very present. Anatu is a goddess of action (and Her myth and associations scare the heck out of me); Choranu is quiet and steadfast; Athiratu has helped me with Her wisdom and sheer presence to help me find a stable center.
I’ll probably find out more, as soon as I get over myself and reach out. I am a master of worrying myself out of actually doing anything.
Resources that helped me get started on learning about Canaanite religion:
Tess Dawson – Her works are what introduced me to Anatu and the Canaanite pantheon:
Kina’ani: Impressions of Tess Dawson, Canaanite Polytheist (blog)
Natib Qadish (very informational website!)
Whisper of Stone
The Horned Altar
Lilinah’s website Qadash Kinahnu, a very informative site that brings a second perspective to the books above.